It's been seven months since I moved to San Diego. In this time, so much has been changing both internally and in my external world. I'm so grateful for the rhythms I've created and the slower pace of life. Business ideas and opportunities have been opening up in the last couple months and I'm paying attention to the signs and synchronicities that let me know I'm on the right path. With all that said, I still have moments of fear and uncertainty. Things are still in transition and I don't know how everything is going to work out. I am practicing trust and surrender.
My brother and I have been talking a lot lately about chasing dreams. He and I are both on the path of following our dreams, despite the fact that those dreams don't line up with societal expectations. People don't always understand when we talk about what we're doing, how we're investing our time and our resources. What if we each followed our own dream and supported others in doing the same? The dreams may be different, but that's the beauty of it. We each came here with our own gifts to give, our own path to take, and our own lessons to learn.
I've been listening to lots of podcasts on Human Design and finding that this system is helping in so many ways. It's allowing me to breathe a sigh of relief in knowing that my type needs lots of rest, that we don't have our own internal energy system, and that I am like a bird who watches from a perch-gathering knowledge. I need to wait for invitations from others rather than pushing my way into the group. All of this makes so much sense...and gives me permission to be me. Listening to the other types and thinking about friends and family in my life, it helps me to understand them better as well. We are each here for our own purpose. When we accept this and allow each other to be who we are, then we each get to light up the world in our own way. We can collaborate with each other rather than competing. I won't go into all the details of Human Design, but if you are interested, you can get your free chart and find out your type here. And I highly recommend listening to Jenna Zoe on this podcast for an overview.
Another theme that has been coming up in my work with clients lately is safety. How we create patterns in our lives to keep us safe. There is good reason for this. Often we didn't feel safe growing up and so we find ways to create the illusion of security. I did it in my marriage. I thought that I had my world figured out and being in a relationship meant that I was protected. What a shock it was when that bubble burst and it all fell away. I had to face the fact that, for me, being in a marriage didn't mean I was safe.
When I let go of the relationship, the job, the busy-ness of a life where I felt stagnant and depleted; that's when the magic started happening. By surrendering everything I previously thought kept me safe, I gave up a veil of illusion. I began my process of un-conditioning. Unlearning all of the beliefs and thoughts that have piled on over thirty-something years of my life that simply aren't true. My reality now is so much better than I could have dreamed. I have time to meet my sister for a walk on the beach in the middle of a Wednesday. I am rested and moving my body everyday. I feel a sense of freedom that I've never known. Even though I'm not making predictable income, money comes in when I need it. I have a roof over my head. I am building community and connecting with others. This is enough. More than enough.
So I say, go out there and chase your dreams, whatever they may be. It doesn't matter if your dream is raising a family, starting your own business, creating art, or dancing your heart out...pursue it. I'm going to keep chasing mine and when our paths cross, we can celebrate each other for bravely choosing to shine our light into the world!